A different introduction...

so... 

Hello... I'm Jenny, an average teenage girl from England. I guess you could say I'm at a good point in life, where I have a long summer ahead - after completing my exams - to relax and enjoy more of my hobbies and interests each day.

To be honest, one of the main reasons I've thought about blogging is due to my mind and way of thinking. I don't know about you but I'm the sort of person to over think everything... literary EVERYTHING! There's not a day that goes by where I'm not questioning something. I don't just mean questions such as, "what have I got to do today?", "why do I have to do that?", "what will happen if I don't do it?", I mean questions as deep as "what's the meaning of life?"... yeah.

I was the kid in my lessons at school who always liked to find hidden meanings behind things. For example in my English class, whenever we studied poetry, I used to use the structure and the words of the poem to create visual images, which not everyone could see. I swear most of the other students just thought I was insane with all the deep comments I contributed, but... it's just my natural thought process.

The other day, I was taking a walk with my family, and we were discussing fears (random I know). Normally, if someone says "what's your fear?" they may respond with a single word or phrase such as, "spiders", "heights", "failure", or "claustrophobia". But whenever anyone asks me... I don't really know what to say.

I don't think many of us really like to admit we have a fear in something, some of us don't like to define or label things by words. I guess I am scared of little things which I'm not aware of until I'm in that situation myself. However I know I fear things such as the unknown and our vulnerability in the world. This is where I could explain myself forever, however I've learned to sum it up in those two words, 'unknown' and 'vulnerability'. 

Basically, I get scared knowing that we can change our lives - for better or for worse - through every single decision we make. You could meet someone who could lead you on to a successful career path or you could meet someone who could kill you in an instant (that's quite blunt of me to say but it's sadly true :/). You could even use your own actions, for example, to create a scar upon your skin by something you've done unintentionally but now it's an ever fixed mark that's apart of you. Life can change dramatically in seconds. We will never know the unknown therefore we are vulnerable to everything...

I could continue deeper, but I'll save your time. I have no idea how many other people have a similar thought process as myself (especially those my age) and I think a blog is a way in which I can express my thoughts to others instead of annoying the same people around me, haha! 

I am in no means a good writer, I just want to try something different, a challenge if you will :)

Thank-you if you actually read this,

Jenny :)